heartbreak

heartbreak

emotions are difficult.
they are not always easily perceived.

I know what heartache feels like,
and I know heartbreak better than most.

I've been disappointed so many times I can't
even begin to count.

but it isn't always disappointment.

I've killed myself.
not physically, but emotionally.
I thought I had really known heartbreak.

but i didn't.
no one does.
Not until they lose everything.
Not until they lose their heart.

I've lost my heart.
I gave it away, all of it,
and now I can never have it back.

so what's to live for?
he is gone.

Hunter is gone.
Hunter, my world, my everything.

I did something bad, something unforgivable.
he says he forgives me.
he's a liar.
he can't possible love me after what i did.
I am not good enough.

I should be the one hurting, not him.
and I am hurting.
but the pain is not enough.
it is not enough pain.
not enough.

Will we ever recover?
I don't know.

I can't live.

I need too much.
I am filth.
I am waste.


I am a waste.