la

la

yesterday was okay.
blah.

anyways.

today i went with my grandmother to a fabric store called JoAnn's.
i got hello kitty fabric ^.^
i'm going to make a blanket.

after that we went to IHOP. blegh.
i didnt like it too much.

so i went home after that.
lalala.

i get to see hunter later (: (: (:
i haven't gotten to talk to him that much because his mother took his phone.
for no reason at all.
bitchh.

but that makes me super happy.
i'm going to christina's house.
that makes me happy too, because i get to see her.
god i haven't seen her in forever.

she's another one of my close friends.
lalala.

i dont know why i keep doing that.
lalala?

oh well. i'm in a good mood.
and that's good.
better than feeling like shit!

i'll be there until eleven ish.

nothing super exciting is happening in my life right now.
so maybe something will tonight.

okay.
i'll tell you all about it tomorrow.
gonna go talk to lauren on aim.
and christina should be picking me up shortly.

oh.
and by the way...
URMOM.

lawl.

the twins

the twins

so i have some pretty cool friends.

well.
of course.
i have more than just these two people.
but anyways.
lauren and jessica are twins.
and i've known them for ten years.

i can trust jessica with pretty much anything.
lauren i can't tell some of the things i tell jessica.
oh well.

but i'm going to their house tomorrow.
yeah.
exciting.
i will definitely not tell lauren about this whole blog thing.
i don't know about jessica yet xP

they're coming to the river with me this weekend.
the river is a campground that my family has a camper at.
woo.
yeah.

one of the guys down there, timothy, likes lauren.
he's sixteen. but you wouldn't think that.
it's not that he's like... super immature.
well, he sort of is a little...
but he just doesn't look sixteen.

people say lauren and jessica and i look like triplets.
we've told people that before.
but i'm taller than them.
yeah.
that's definitely noticable.
by like, a lot.


lauren just tries to do whatever jessica and i do.
it kind of bugs us... like, whenever we change, she changes.
whatever...

i'm so tired.
i was going to say a lot of stuff about the twins.
because they're sort of in my life a lot.
but i guess i'll just explain along the way.

goodnight...

hunter...

hunter...

my best friend is amazing.

why is it that mostly everyone who is incredibly gifted,
and talented beyond comprehension has a sucky home life?
i don't get it.
why can't things just be fine with the world?
why is something always screwing up life?

he's hunter.
he's amazing.
i love him...

his mom hates him.
he hates his mom.
she's beat him before...
she yells at him and treats him like shit.
i hate it.
i will never treat my child the way she treats him.

gosh.
mm.

he's really smart.
he is pretty much into anything,
music wise anyways.
he's completely turned my life around.


today he texted me.
he texts me every day (:
but he told me his mom had just beat him really badly.
i nearly started to cry, but i was in the car with my mom,
and i didn't want her to ask.
ugh.
so he said he was going to run away.
i know that he can't keep getting hurt.
he doesn't deserve to be treated so poorly.
but i don't want him to run away.

rob lives with them.
hunter calls him his stepdad, but his mom and rob aren't married.
but he cares about hunter.

he said that his mom might be kicking out rob too.
i begged for hunter to talk to rob, and he said he would.
i'm hoping he'll leave with rob if that's what has to happen.

i just wish i could understand why she treats her son so badly.
her own son...

i don't know what to do.
i want to help.
but what am i supposed to do?



mm...

i hate my life

i hate my life

i'm so confusing.

i don't know what to do with myself.

i have this amazing guy.
his name is hunter.
and i love him.

i'm just an ordinary girl i guess.
i have blond hair.
and blue eyes.

people say i'm pretty.
but i dont think so.
i guess it's just a matter of opinion.
whatever.
you're not supposed to think you're pretty.
unless you're a huge star with a huge ego.
ugh.

i hate people.
people are jerks.
blagh.

nothing seems to make sense anymore.
duck duck duck.
same thing as fuck.
just.
i have a problem with cursing on the computer.
i'm weirddd.

if you continue to read my blog, you'll find that out pretty easily.
i just want to write about my life... so i can look back on it later.
yeah.

call me a loser.
call me whatever you wish.
but i'm me.
and you can't judge me.